Baby 4

Around 5am on January 21 I woke up to a painful but mild contraction. Id been crampy the day or two leading up to this day but mostly just a general feeling then waves.

They were from then on every 15 mins apart. I had quite a bit to do that day. We had planned to get a grocery haul at superstore, my mom, kids and I left by 9am to go do that while hubby was on a work call. He also had to run out and grab a car seat and some work items after I got back but before 2pm when I had a dentist appointment. It was a lot of running around but it kept my mind busy as my body continued to do its thing regularly.

After my dentist appointment, to patch a cracked molar that had happened a few days before my mom, the kids and I headed to do a Costco trip, mostly for diapers for #3 and pull ups for #2. We also grabbed stuff for dinner, cheese and crackers and some ice cream sandwiches.

Headed home and was home around 4:30. Contractions had gotten a bit closer together but were still pretty mild. Around 10-12 mins apart. We continued on with the day our 5 year old was very excited. I kept the doula informed thru the day and let my midwife know around 6pm that things were regular and seemed to be early labour. She asked to let me know when I called over my doula.

A little after 9:00pm my contractions started to pick up in intensity I was still talking thru them but they were making me stop what I was doing and sway and breath thru them a bit. About 8 mins apart and 40-50 seconds long. Our doula came a little before 10. She got set up and we mostly just chatted while I sat on the exercise ball.

The doula and husband tried setting up the water to the birthing pool around 11 while I was in the shower. My mom got involved and they looked for tools. It was decided that we couldn’t hook up the water to the pool, so that was out. I asked the doula to set up the bathtub for me instead as things were starting to feel more painful. I got out of the shower and went back to walking/ swaying on the ball and side laying on the bed a bit before getting into the tub and then back into the shower as the water had cooled in the tub and I got the doula to put more hot water in.

At 12:17 I got my husband call the midwife, the doula had been timing the contractions for me for a bit and they were between 2:30-3 mins apart and about a min long, intensity was decently painful.

The midwife came about 30/45 mins later. I mostly was in the tub at this point. When she got here she set up and I got her to check my cervix, at the time I ask her not to tell me (I was at a 5). She listened to baby during the next contraction and then started setting up for my antibiotic IV. I got back into the tub while she did that.

Around 1:30 I started the IV and laboured on the bed. They were quite painful and I was struggling being on the bed, it wasn’t a good position for me but 3 or 4 contractions later I was finished and able to move more freely again. I went to the labour ball for a bit then back into the tub.

Around 2 my midwife called for the second midwife (one for me and one for baby). She arrived about 2:33am. I was having a hard time with contractions now and had hit transition and was puking and struggling with feeling overwhelmed. The contractions were very painful and close together. I kept telling myself I could do it, I had done it 3 times before, it was hard but I could do hard things. I started talking to her, telling her I loved her and couldn’t wait to meet her which really helped. Around 3 I got my midwife to check me, I was having a lot of pressure during contractions. She said I had a bit of a lip of cervix but Id probably get pushy during contractions. I was leaning on my husband squatting and felt I needed to go to the bathroom so I waddled over there. Finished that up and jumped right into the tub after.

I hadn’t planned on giving birth in the tub but that is where things ended up. The water felt really nice when I got in for a few seconds before another contraction hit. Up until now id been labouring in the tub on hands and knees like my other births, that felt most comfortable. However this time I kept having to move quite a bit to stay feeling in the right position. I was leaning, standing, squatting, lots of moving.

At 3:23 my water broke (I was completely unaware of this) and immediately I felt like pushing. First push baby head was born, I reached down and touched her hair, it felt like slow motion, it suddenly wasn’t painful anymore, just me and her, the next contraction she turned and the next contraction I pushed her the rest of the way out and she was born at 3:27am. She had her cord wrapped around her body, so the midwife unwrapped her and I pulled her up to my chest out of the water. The midwife put a towel on us while we waited for the placenta was born and we did delayed cord clamping. 6 mins after she was born, placenta came out easily without issue.

My husband cut the cord a few mins later and I let him do some skin to skin with baby. The midwives helped me out of the water and moved me to my bed. Monitored my bleeding a bit, checked for any tears, which I didn’t have. I got my doula to go wake up my mom and number 1 and 2 to meet baby. They were very excited and happy to see her.

Once the midwives were all done taking my vitals and checking me over. I sent the kids back to bed. They looked over baby and took her vitals while I held her. I was not into trying to nurse her yet. I took a Motrin as soon as she was born (before the placenta was born) cause I knew the after pains were going to be brutal (they are) and wanted to wait until they kicked in.

After they checked over the baby, the second midwife headed home. The doula was busy cleaning up the mess and putting away the pool and other equipment. My midwife was chatting with me about what to expect and the papers she was leaving with us, as well as filling out paperwork. Around 5:30 they headed out and we tucked into bed.

Baby girl was born 7lbs 7 ozs. Around 3/3:30 hours of active labour. Almost 24 hours after early labour started Jan 21/2022

Birth story baby 3

I went to my midwife appointment on March 5th around 2pm. I’d been having unusual discharge which turned out after she used the speculum to get a swab to be a yeast infection.

After the appointment (I didn’t get a cervix check or sweep done) I started having a lot of cramping around 6pm I was mid eating dinner and got a contraction and couldn’t finish my dinner. Got into the tub, my daughter joined me.

Around 630pm I messaged my doula saying I felt crampy and I’d keep her up to date on what was going on around 7 they were about 10 mins apart and gave the go ahead to my doula to come over (she had a decent drive to our house) called the midwife to let her know what was going on. She said due to our second baby coming so fast to come in in half an hour (830ish).

Doula got to our house kinda went over what the plan was. My husband was worried he’d miss the birth so he wanted to pack the kids up and fallowed the doula and I to the hospital incase labour was very fast.

Got to the hospital around then and admitted and to the room around 9. Got checked, I was at a 3.5. So enough to be admitted considering my consistent contractions. It didn’t pick up super fast but slowly got more intense and closer together but still was about a 4/10 on the pain scale and every 5 mins.

So around 11 My husband (who had been waiting in the car with sleeping kids) headed home after coming up to give me a kiss and reassure me. Things kept on going pretty slowly and around 3am I got a membrane sweep and was at a 4 (cm). Things picked up and got pretty good around a 7/10 in pain and 2 ish mins apart, I got in the shower to help with pain, had about 5 or 6 contractions in there but came out very light headed and needed to rest, as soon as I started to rest pain slowly faded and contractions slowed down again to around 10 mins apart.

The doula and I got some rest until 7 am or so. I got checked again and was around a 5. So we made a plan we started a very low dose of pitocin to keep the contractions more regular and we would increase very slowly (about 2 every half hour) and reassess at 11am.

Hubby came by to check on me around 9:30am. Contractions were starting to pick up but I was still able to talk through them and work through them. Doula came back and hubby took the kids back home.

At 11 my midwife checked me again and I was at 6. I agreed to increase pitocin and break my waters at 1pm was the best route to take. Got my hubby to come back for 1pm as I’d never had my waters broken before but I knew it would be intense. I asked to use gas and air while she checked me (I was a 7) and did a sweep and broke my water. I found this process even with the gas and air to be extremely painful. Contractions picked up right away. I had planned to just use the gas and air for the procedure but change my mind when the first one hit me like a ton of bricks. I was glad my husband was there to hold my hand. I made it about 30-45 mins (the gas and air really puts me out of it) I felt like pushing several times ( exactly how I felt with baby 2) by an hour I felt like I needed to crawl out of my skin and couldn’t handle the pain, my body was trying to push and baby was too far up the canal.

So I asked for a epidural, I wasn’t going to have him super quickly like I thought and I was exhausted from being up all night. By 230 pm I got the epidural in, which was extremely hard as the contractions were terrible (I was about a 8 at this point) and had about 4 while getting it placed, trying to keep totally still. I hugged my husband as hard as I could and tried not to cry. After 3 or 4 more contractions the pain was pretty much gone.

Hubby switch back with the doula and went home with the kids while I rested and waited for baby to descend. At 530 pm my midwife came and checked me she said I was at a 9 and baby was super low. It was almost time. We waited until 545 to call my husband. We should have called at 530. It is a 15 min drive.

By 6 I was ready to push and he just left the house. So we waited, I could feel baby descending and the urge to push was extremely strong. I just relaxed and tried not to laugh or push. During each contraction I felt baby coming, and my body slowly kicking baby out. 615 I was watching the map for my husband and saw he was almost here so I sent out my doula to meet him at the door. She ran down and he ran up. While that was happening I got onto my hands and knees (not the easiest thing to do with an epidural) and the rest of the team started to get ready. He came through the doors and I started to push.

Baby was born less then 10 mins later and about 3 contractions. A little boy.

Born in March 6 629 pm

8lbs 9oz 20inches

38 weeks 4 days

Today is leap day. I’ve been dreading it since we discovered that I was pregnant. I have about 7 more hours to go before it’s over and can stop willing then baby to stay in until it’s over, thank goodness.

Things are going well, we have a midwife after much annoyance with medical insurance and being rejected from the centre we hoped to birth at due to being too far along. It’s been an adventure but we had an ultra sound and baby looks healthy and larger then our other two babies. I’m not overly surprised since I have gained more weight this pregnancy as well. Our first pregnancy I gained 12 lbs and second 10lbs but this one I’m at like 25lbs. I did start pregnancy off about 20 lbs lighter then our other two so that’s my reasoning.

Mostly just tired and sore, had some predominal labour on Sunday day and night but woke up and it was gone.

We also hired a doula this time, she’s amazing. I’m so glad to have her, having no family or friends in our new area has been very hard, not to mention the over all lack of excited from our friends and family for this baby in general. Emotional it’s been a tough pregnancy. I’m lucky that our pregnancies have been decently easy physically and I haven’t had any health concerns during any of them. My anxiety is horrible each time, definitely the worst it’s been is this time though. I’m hoping to start therapy soon and work through a whole bunch of person problems, I know the pregnancy anxiety will leave once baby is born but I’m decently worried about ppd again and will do what I can to avoid that. If we had the money I’d want to encapsulate the placenta to give that a shot as I didn’t get to last time as it was disposed of. With the cost of the doula and having to rebuy all our baby stuff again as it’s all in Canada still, I can’t justify the additional cost for something that may do nothing for me.

I’ve had to make peace with a lot over the course of the last few months regarding baby. It’s hard to wrap my head around having a baby and not having any friends and family around. To know the baby won’t have the opportunity to create close relationships like our other kids did. It’s been a lot of adjustment for everyone the past year.

I’m very excited to meet baby any day though. Not that we are remotely prepared to but I want to see babies sweet face and have them be firmly on earth-side. Part of me wishes I’d documented more with blogs during this pregnancy but I haven’t felt like writing. I’m hoping I will be able to pick up on a new topic in the future though. Maybe our homeschooling adventures that will start next year or something else that sparks me some joy.

29 weeks

Just started the third trimester. I’m super exhausted but doing ok otherwise. A fair amount of hip pain and under belly pain when I got for long walks or carry my little toddler too much.

Can’t believe it’s Christmas already. Haven’t really felt in the christmas spirit this year, not sure if it’s due to the mass amounts of charges that have happened in the last 6 months or something else but I’ve been trying with music, baking, Christmas crafts etc without much luck. I’m excited to see how the kids react to our Christmas morning ( we will be doing it on the 28th as that’s when we have my oldest daughter for her Christmas holidays). All the kids are capable to opening and enjoying gifts this year (16m, 3.5 and 10.5) which makes things more fun I feel.

Our 10.5 year old has becoming a preteen for the last little while, it’s been hard cause she wants to be alone all the time and doing her own thing so picking out gifts wasn’t exactly easy but I’m hoping she is able to enjoy them.

Our 16m old is at the get into everything / climb everything stage so we decided again doing a tree this year which I’m sure isn’t helping the spirit.

Surprise pregnancy 3

So. It happened to us. Never ever thought we would be those lucky couples who accidentally get pregnant. Here we are though, at 19weeks. We always intended to have another baby but had wanted a larger gap then our first two pregnancies. Alas God had different plans.

On June 5th I got my first period pp my son was 9 m old, I felt my milk supply drop but it returned after a few days of cluster feeding. Little did I know that would be my last period as well. Around July 7th ish I noticed he was clusterfeeding again and figured I was going to get my period soon as I was due for it but wasn’t too concerned about it as my period before kids was super irregular and my period between kids the first time was irregular. A couple days later I start barfing my brains out and I knew.

Took a test and bam two lines. I was totally shocked. With both kids pregnancies we experienced infertility and here we were pregnant by accident. I felt and still do feel so embarrassed to admit that. Our baby is so wanted and we are thrilled to be completing our family but I feel guilty to have the babies so close together knowing how hard the first few Months were on our now 3 year old and she was older. I am worried it will be too much and I won’t be able to have the space and I time I need to bond properly with baby and give my two other kids what they need for me.

When we told friends and family with a few exceptions it was received very poorly. A few not responding to it at all, an obligatory congrats or just wow.. already. My mom is thrilled, she loves our kids, she’s nervous for us but not less excited for us. It was hard for me especially when I was struggling with it a bit myself.

Now I’m feeling better about it, I love my baby and am excited to meet him or her and that’s staving off my reservations and my fears of failing my family.

Now almost half way through, things have been harder in my physically, experiencing things earlier pain wise, sore back, nerve pain, sore pelvis, etc. I had more nausea this time around then the first two and a lot more puking especially during the night. Insomnia has been worse starting with all the puking during the night.

Baby seems to be doing well, we heard the heart beat a few days ago and sounded normal and strong. We haven’t had an ultra sound yet but will be in the next few weeks. 5 more months to go. Due March 15th.

Me at 13/14 weeks just starting 2nd trimester

20 weeks halfway there

14m old

My baby boy is 14m old yesterday. It was a sad day as I think he is now totally weaned. It’s been over 24hours without nursing him at all. I wish we could have gone longer but once again as soon as I got pregnant (more in that) my milk supply plummeted and breast became super sensitive and painful to nurse. We got pregnant when he was about 10 m old so he was nursing like a newborn again to keep my supply up while we waited until he was 12m to transition to other milk sources. At 13m he was only nursing 3 or 4 times a day but still quite frequently through the night. The last two weeks he dropped all night feeding and only was nursing before his nap/s and bed. The last week he stopped nursing before naps and then the last 3 nights only before bed and then last night totally stopped. I really wanted to nurse him until he was 2 but once I was pregnant I knew that wasn’t happening. Our journey was so much better then with my first, so smooth, we never had to supplement, I never pumped except one day when he was super sick and almost hospitalized and refusing to eat all day at 4 m. I really hope my next breastfeeding journey can be as smooth and lovely. Fair well nursing for at least 4 or 5 months.

Baby 1 is 38 months( aka 3 years)

Our beautiful fiery red head is so stereotypical it’s not even funny. She’s incredible. Independent, fierce, smart, stubborn, funny, cute, never needs sleep and has a temper I’ve never seen the likes of before.

She doesn’t do too well with change, it really throws her off, it definitely makes temper tantrums much worse and sleep unheard of. Once she’s settled though, she’s a lot better.

She’s a really quick learner and probably would pass kindergarten entry level exam. She knows her number to 20 or 30, Her alphabet, all the colours, she recognizes street signs, can draw quite well, she want to learn everything, like right now. I’m sure she will be reading by the time she’s 5.

She a style fashionista, needs to wear what she needs to wear, loves to dress up and she has the most amazing imagination. She loves playing with dolls and babies. She loves building with blocks or whatever is around, boxes, blankets, chairs, whatever she will build something with it. She loves stuffed animals and had way too many. She loves doll houses and playing cars with her dollies. She also likes her tablet and watching movies most notedly princess movies, trolls/smurfs and animal movies.

She’s been “potty trained” about 6 months and 100% had peeing down but still does not like doing number two on the potty. She will not use a training potty and must use the normal one. She wakes up dry almost every morning but for now we are keeping her in training pants for sleep.

She hasn’t napped since 18 months but has been in her own room and bed since 20 months as well. Often she comes into our bed or comes to find us but will resettle with a cuddle in her own bed normally. Initially falling asleep for the night had always been a probably and still is. Thanks to melatonin we have a somewhat normal routine now, this took almost 2 years and lots of Drs/paediatrician appointments and while I am not happy about finding the cause for her unableness to fall asleep on her own, I am happy to not be spending 4-6 hours at bedtime holding her while she cries and screams herself to sleep anymore. Most night it’s 30-45 mins to get her to fall asleep (normally without crying) and that’s a real blessing. I’m also going to note, we have done exactly the same things with baby 2 as we did with her, fallowing cues and readiness signs and he is a wonderful sleeper, so I’m extremely grateful for that as well as reassured it, in fact is not our fault she is this way.

Another thing we have always struggled with since she was born has been eating, at birth it was breastfeeding issues, I was diagnosed with insufficient breast tissue as the cause for this but she continued to lose more and more weight until I was strongly encouraged to supplement by the health nurse. Shortly after she started to put weight on but needed to be nurses every hour to 2 hours day and night the first 16 months until I got mastitis and then became pregnant and weaned her at 20 months. Once she was 6 month she had all readiness signs for solids but never had much interest. Around 1 she started really rejecting food and it’s been a real struggle since. We have met with dieticians and a paediatrician on this issue as well with very little help given. They felt it was a stage. I don’t think stages start from birth, they were very unhelpful in general. So we have struggled with it and continue to. She eats bout 15-18 different types of healthy foods. We have tried multiple methods for months at a time to encourage new foods but they consistently are rejected. The list of food just gets smaller as she gets older as well. It’s very frustrating but we are doing all we can I believe. We are going for a second opinion very soon and are hopeful for answers but feel it’s pretty unlikely. Again we have done exactly the same thing with our second baby and he’s a ferocious eater and usually eats double what his sister does so I feel it’s again something going on and not our approach.

She is very small for her age height wise. Her weight is average around 30lbs but she is just 34inches. Which is in the average range for a 24month old. I do wonder if her small palette for eating and lack of sleep contributes to this. Hoping one day we will know.

Over all she’s generally happy, loves to play and colour/draw and is a good little girl. She amazes me everyday and love watching her grow.

Baby 2 is one today

So it’s been a whole year since I’ve blogged anything. Life with two little ones is a lot sometimes.

I’m happy to report everyone is doing well. Breastfeeding went well, never needed to pump or supplement formula. I didn’t develop PPD this time, which I’m incredibly thankful about.

I had planned on encapsulating my placenta to help with PPD and milk supply ( works for some and not at all for others) but the nurse disposed of it despite asking my midwife and a nurse before hand not to. Alas it happened and there wasn’t anything that could be done. In the end I didn’t need it and am thankful for that.

Baby developed normally, sat up, crawled and started walking all at the right times or before. He’s not nearly as talkative as our first, he can say momma, dada, dog and sit. He can shake his head no and nod his head yes, he does do high fives, waves hi and bye and love peekaboo. He’s generally very happy, a great napper and until recently a good night sleeper. He’s got 8 teeth and 2 more coming in. He’s in 9m clothes but our growing the sleepers.

He’s napping at 10 am and 2 pm for about an hour – hour and half ea. He’s asleep by 7 pm and wakes about 6/630am. He’s sleeping down quite a bit the last week or two on nursing but his solids intake is very good so I’m not very worried. He drinks water through out the day and generally is nursing before naps, before bed, during the night as sometimes one or twice for a min or two through out the day. I’m happy with that. I’m not ready to wean and hope to continue for quite a while longer but happy not to be nursing all the time (every hour or two) anymore.

He’s a petite guy. Not exactly sure on his weight or height but definitely on the small side.

He’s a very handsome little guy. He constantly gets complimented on his big eyes and dark lashes. He’s always generous with smiles.

He loves his big sisters and especially terrorizing his 3 y/o sister.

He’s very active and loves to climb, run, walk, and move everywhere. I often have to contain him. Luckily he still enjoys the baby carrier when we are out.

Welcome to the world little man

Aug 14 my water started to leak Around 4pm.

Went to the grocery store not entirely sure that was the case but while I was there I felt two small gushes while walking around. When I got home I told my hubby and he called the midwife.

I met her at her office about an hour later 645 pm she took a sample and ran a couple tests and determined it to indeed be a break/leak. Which makes me some sort of weird statistic as only 1/10 women’s water break before labour starts.

She informed me of my options, knowing I was not wanting to be induced as I was with my first after my water broke and labour didn’t happen.

Option one go to the hospital to be induced.

Option two wait out the night, see if labour happened on its own and if not go get induced around noon.

Option three wait out the night and drink an “induction” cocktail (also called verbena cocktail) and see if that can kick start labour.

I picked option 3. Little did I know how disgusting the cocktail would be. Nastiest drink ever.

So I slept really well through out the night and woke up about 7am. No labour, no nothing. Made up the cocktail at 830, you have to drink it over 1/2 an hour. Called the midwife let know nothing had happened and i had drank the cocktail. She said it takes 4-6 hours to kick in and to call her at 1pm.

1pm comes around and I’m feeling pretty gross and crampy. I call the midwife and she says ok, well let’s wait another hour and if nothing happens we will meet at the hospital to start an induction. I agree. About 15 mins later I’m feeling worse and run a bath. My mom comes and picks up our very grouchy toddler. Just as the bath finishes i start having contractions, I have 3 in 6 mins and my husband calls the midwife and she asks what’s going on. He asks me and I just tell him we are going to the hospital. We get there a bit before 2 and he tells the nurses we are having a baby. We get put into room 11.

My midwife shows up confused. She explains normally you get assessed before getting a room or admitted but she checks me, I’m at 3cms and my contractions are every 1/2 mins. We staying.

She runs a bath for me as I’m having a hard time breathing through the contractions now. I get into the bath and have instant relief. Pain goes back down to a 1 or 2.

My dad shows up and my husband stays in the room with him while i labour in the tub with the midwife spraying my back with hot water. About 3:15 and lots of changing positions, I decide I need to change my environment.

I kick my dad out and move to the base of the bed with a labouring ball. Pain is about 7 or 8 but I’m doing okay, hubby and my midwife are rubbing my back during each contraction about 3:35 pain shoots to a 9 and I ask for gas and air. Around 3:45 pain hits a 10 and I ask for an epidural ( I am thinking at this point I have hours and hours of labour left ).

The gas and air makes me feel really foggy and I have a hard time stopping taking it cause the pain is too much. I have a contraction and my husband says my knees gave out and I was in obviously extreme pain. I asked for an epidural again.

My midwife knew it wasn’t in my plan so she was trying to encourage me to get through it but I was insistent. After that crazy contraction though she was saying she needed to see what I was at before I could get an epidural. I got on to the table and she checked me quickly and said I was at a 7. It was 4;00 pm. Next contraction I get on my hands and knees and she says omg there’s a baby’s head, your pushing! The room fills with confused nurses and my husband says one nurse walks in with a handful of paper work to be signed for the epidural totally casually and my midwife is like never mind that, the baby is coming right now. She high tails it out and comes back with a team to deliver our baby.

I’m a total mess, still feeling off from the gas and air, confused about what’s going on. I had no idea I was pushing. I actually feel slightly traumatized by how fast it all happened now.

Our baby boy was born at 4:04pm Aug 15th. 2 and half hours of active labour and just two hours after getting to the hospital.

Baby and I are both doing well and were able to get early release. We took a couple visitors and left the hospital by 8pm.

6lbs 6oz

26 Months

My amazing little red head is 2.

Ready to become a big sister.

She talks in full sentences. Has been for 4 ish months (but painfully quiet around new people)

A fire cracker as she has been since pretty much birth.

Loves her stuffies and dollies

She loves helping bake

She’s great with independent play

Working on playing with other 2 y/os but great with old kids

Knows her manners

Loves her Daddy

Still not a great eater, quite particular

Loves to be outside and swimming

Loves books and reading

Recent love for Paw patrol much to my dismay…

Loves princesses and watching frozen

Was on the potty training wagon but we moved and motivation/interest is totally gone for now

25 lbs 31 inches (very short)

Size 2t clothes but some 18m stuff still fits fine. Size 6 shoes.