9 months (out almost  as long as in) 

The last two weeks has been hell. She’s going thru sleep regression and gettting/has gotten 5 teeth. Need a say more? Yes. My easy to go to sleep at night baby is long gone, bring in the 2-4 hour fight for almost a week, waking every hour to nurse, needy all day long. Needless to say I’m touch out and just want my two hour break back between putting her to bed and going to bed but alas that might be a couple more days/ week away. I’m quite sure she’s growth spurting as well. We will see later today when I get her weighed. Two weeks ago she was just about 20lbs   But she’s suddenly fitting all her 12 m clothes so I have a feeling. 

Eating solids has good days and bad. Some days all she wants to do is nurse and will just play with the three meals I provide. Some days she wants puréed food and other o my finger food, I try and give her both as options as she still seems to want the puréed stuff. Cheese, blues berries and pancakes are her favourites, she would just eat those if she could but alas mommy is in charge of it so she has to try weird things like pears, and cherrioes (this mornings breakfast plus pancakes(( only thing she actually ate)). I hate wasting food and a month ago and before I’d just eat what she had not but now there is now way, it’s a thrown in the ground, squashed, half chewed mess. Yuck. Still not doing well with sippy cups, she prefers drinking out if a cup with mommys help, what a pain :p might just skip the sippy cup as the dentist recommends being done with it before teeth ( didn’t even remember to start trying before teeth) 

Speaking of teeth, she had 2 fully in from nov then out of no where about two weeks ago bam the two teeth beside the bottom front start showing up then bam again the top left front and then a couple days after the top right front and the top left to the front. Wow. #teethinghell <– while very true I think it’s so cool! Must hurt a lot so I feel terrible for her but it’s interesting none the less. 

She’s still army crawling and we worry she will slip hands and knees crawling all together.. but she is now pulling herself up to standing and walking along couches, she had 0 balance though so she is in need of a constant spotter. She still gets around though, every two seconds stopping her from crawling on to the fireplace or front the side of the tv stand ( going for the cables at the back). Her toys aren’t interesting to her anymore she wants to figure out the world, empty boxes and the underside of the table are where it’s at, if there is a nook she’s trying to fit into it. 

A new interest of hers is also books, she’s opening them, looking at pictures, touching the textures and opening the flaps, me and my husband love reading ( though I have barely had a chance since she’s been born but I digress)  so this is a big deal in our home, we have book shelves full for her already and more for each stage there after. Books was one of those things I never felt bad buying for baby while waiting to get pregnant, they are gender neutral and even if baby never came they would have made good gifts. At the same time she also started to notice the tv, we don’t watch tv but we love a good movie, before now she was either sleeping or would happily play with her toys ( refer back to previous paragraph :p ) while we did so without any notice of the screen, now we have to plan our tv time out a bit more scheduled as she’s starting to drop her last nap of the day as well. That’s ok, we will survive with less screen tv time. 

Diaper changes are impossible to go about without a horrible fight, i dread it each time it’s needed. I thought about mentioning it last month as it started about a month and a half ago but hoped if I didn’t It would stop. Alas it didn’t work out that way. We clothe diaper for the most part, we do disposables over night and if we do a diaper change when we are out. 1-3 a day but they are so much easier than the fight with clothe, in temped to switch completely. I’m just too cheap, that’s literally the only reason at this point. I already own the cloth ones. Ugh. The weird part about the whole thing is she’s fine when hubby changes her, I literally copy exactly what he does and she screeches and twists and turns and tries to throw herself off the table. I’ve tried every which way. I’ve completely given up on putting clothes on her, I have to do that after I change the diaper and put her down to play, which can be quite a pain and take quite awhile but it works, sometimes she’s a bit better ( still not good)  if I change her on the floor but that’s hit or miss. Any pointers? 

We have have been working on getting her to sleep in a crib co sleeper style for quite awhile that’s mostly gone out the window the last two weeks but it was every other night or so before that point, it sure feels nice to stretch out in bed, disclaimer I do love bedsharinng but it makes me stiff from not moving all night other then to switch side while nursing. So the plan is to have her sleep her first big chunk of sleep in the crib attached the bed then bedshare for the remainder. The night I’ve managed to get her asleep in there, it’s worked out nicely. We will probably pick that up again in a week or so ( if I surivive till then :p) 

8 months 

Rivers growing like a weed. 18lbs 15.2oz now. We went and got her a vaccine (meningococcal c) this month. I nursed her while they did it and she didn’t cry or seem to notice. She didn’t have any reaction either so that was good. It took us along time to decided what to do about vaccines, not that we are against them or ‘anti-Vaxers’ but we wanted to make the right decision on them for us /her and it took awhile for me and my husband to come to an agreement. We both knew we wanted to wait a bit (after 6 months at least) before she got any but the rest we had to discuss and research. We are still going over the pros and cons for the others but we want to space each vaccine out anyway. 

Naps have been better lately, still not planning on scheduled ones but 4 or 5 times a day I give her an opportunity to nap, whether it’s nursing her in bed or just some quiet time, she’s taking 3 a day still, sometimes two longer ones instead. She’s never napped for longer then 30 mins regularly until this last week. It’s been nice, though I’m not a napper myself, so I dont get to catch up on sleep, I do get some much needed personal time. Usually I use it to clean but I have also taken a shower, started a show, read a few pages of a book. She’s going to bed for the night between 830 and 10 depending when her last nap of the day was.

She has started to army crawl around, rolling was her main way of getting around most of the month but she’s started to army crawl  more and more the last week. I’m so proud of her! She also walks when your holding her hands and has always liked standing but will hold onto the coffee table or couch unassisted if you help her get there. 

She’s always been very vocal and loved to screech, but she’s slowed down a bit in that and is saying mummummum, babababa, dadadada and yayayya instead. It’s been a wonderful transition for our ears and I love hearing her little voice. The first time I could tell she was calling for me, it was the best feeling, a week later I am a bit begrudged because I feel like a terrible person know she wants me if I don’t immediately go to her. 

She’s eating lots of solids with cheese still being a favourite. She generally enjoys something for a few days then stops liking it. This has happened with apple, banana, apricot, three different baby cookies and as of today manago (this is only for finger foods and doesn’t apply to purées)  I find if I re introduce them a few weeks later she will take them again for a few days then will strictly play with them. She likes cherrios, she will eat whatever puréed food I give her except for peas, she loves everything potato also toast, pancakes, eggs most of the time and many other things. She’s been using her sippy cup during meal times, though I read she should be off bottle and sippy cups by 6 months according to her dentist and on to open mouthed cups by now, ya.. that won’t be for a while. Though she does drink just fine out of a regular cup and water bottles, it tend to be a mess as she doesn’t really love/know what to do with the taste of water and it ussually comes out of her mouth and all over her front. 

Speaking of teeth, she still have just two but they are fully in now, I’m sure more will be here soon but so far none are budding and she does seem to be teething. Pulling on her ears, biting everything and really chewing in her thumb. 

7 months

So Rivers first Christmas & New Years, pretty good, we went and saw santa with my older daughter two weeks before the big day. Got a cute picture but the photographer wasn’t the best and it looks like my husband is an outsider by the way they positioned him. We celebrated Christmas on the 23rd and was able to have Kyra for 12 hours ( the longest we’ve ever had her) have Christmas breakfast, lunch and dinner as well as opening present and stockings. Play with new toys, and set up lego kits. It was really nice. She got spoiled but it was the first time we really got Christmas with her, so it makes up for the last couple years we hope (by no fault of our own, we would have loved to have her).

 River is growing, 17 and half lbs last time we weighed her a couple weeks ago, probably over 18 now though. She’s got her two bottom teeth fully in now and she’s a real biter. It’s taken a toll on our breast feeding journey, she bites me almost each time during the day, I end the nursing session and put her In her playpen, I say no, biting hurts mommy but I haven’t seen any real change since it started. It defiantly makes me wanna wean her, at least during the day, she takes formula fine, she is also eating breakfast and dinner on solids ( as much as she wants ) then topped up with breastmilk or a bottle. She’s eating pretty much everything we eat now. Haven’t tried peanut butter and a couple other major allergen foods yet but in the next month we will at least try some of them. 

She continues to be a terrible napper. Ussually 2, 20-30 min naps and one hour-hour and half long nap sporadically. Sometimes just one 20 min and one hour long one. Makes for a grumpy baby by bedtime. We have been putting her down and hour or two before we go to bed and having some couple time for the past few days and that’s been nice. 

She’s not quite crawling but she’s starting to scoot, push back and pull forward and she’s been an effective roller for awhile. She’d probably be crawling if we had carpet everywhere, but it’s only in the bedrooms which I like although hardwood isn’t fun to face plant onto. 

I packed all her clothes that were less then 6 months. She still fit some 3 month stuff but it was a couple weeks away from being too small and she just had entirely too many clothes. Now it’s 6 month and 9 month only and it’s about half as much as it was. Much more reasonable. 

She’s still using her soother but as it has mostly been just after she’s fallen asleep or if she’s in the car and going to fall asleep. She nurses to sleep still but not always for naps. She’s still up a lot to nurse during the night. Haven’t had longer than 3 hours sleep straight for a couple months but she’s teething again right now so ussually every hour during the night at the moment. It’s tough, im ussually sleep deprived which sucks. The alternative is to let her cry, which neither my husband or I can bare, so for now I’ll continue to suck it up and hope it’s better once she’s done this round of teething. 

She had her first sickness this past month, congestion and coughing. No fever or vomiting though. My husband and I both had the same cold, mine lasted a few days (Christmas eve and Christmas being the worst of it) but hers was about two weeks long and hubby’s became pneumonia as it often does and he’s still in the trenches though better then he was. She would wake up coughing in the middle of the night and it scared the heck out of us, sounded like she couldn’t catch her breath a couple times. We felt helpless but we brought her to the dr and he said it’s a seasonal cold and it would pass on its own and thankfully it did. We used Vicks rub each night but that’s about all we could do, other than hot showers ( running the shower but not being in it) to help loosen the congestion. I’m sure her immune system is better for it but it was mighty scary. 

Other than that not a lot else to report, healthy beginnings we aged out of, so we are going to a mothers wellness group instead and actively looking for other groups to attend to make some baby friends and other mom friends. Winter is a lonely time for a first time mom I’m finding, so hopefully there are friends on the horizon 🙂 

The big 6 (months)

Our baby is officially 6 months today. She such an amazing little person. She has cut two teeth now and understandably quite cranky the last few days. She’s chewing on everything, she’s started a bit on solids as well. She has had a variety of foods, mostly I try and give her whole foods to attempt to eat or just gum on (carrots, apple slices) but we have also tried a couple purees ( likes squash, green bean; doesn’t like peas) , she’s been eating oatmeal biscuits and French fries/potato wedges which she loves.

She’s still eating about every two -3 hours day and night. It can be waring but mostly Ive gotten used to it. She’s still mostly breast fed, getting chunks of food/purées around dinner and munches on the same Biscuit I give her in the morning most the day.

Sleep is elusive but she ussually stays in bed 12 hrs if we go to bed at 10 she will be happy to wake up around 10 but is up 4 or 5 times to eat but doesn’t cry or fuss goes right back to sleep after eating. In that I’m blessed. Though initially getting her to sleep/in bed can be a challange.

Talking is becoming more clear, she’s saying dadada and mamama. Lots of chatting in baby talk but mostly loud screeching, she loves to hear herself and make as loud of noises as possible. Drives my DH a bit nuts as it’s a very high pitched noise. 

She’s going to be on the move pretty soon, we need to baby proof the house ! She’s rolling to places to move when she wants right now but I can see the beginnings of crawling. She can sit up pretty well now and has great hand eye coordination. 

We don’t fallow milestones but I know vaguely what to look for and when and she seems to be growing pretty well and learning at a good pace. She almost 17lbs at her 6month check up two weeks ago so I’m quite sure she is 17lbs now. 

She is still a tough one to get to nap but if we get out for a walk or take a drive at the right time she throws  me a bone and ussually crashes till circumstances chance (car ride ends / we get to a park ). Other times car rides are a nightmare, she has been better lately then she was (expect since a couple days ago when the tooth started to come in) she had been sleeping Or playing while in the car. 2 months ago and before, it was non-stop constant screaming while in the car and most of the time we stayed home because of it. So glad that has Started to change. 

She’s mostly in 3-6 months clothes but still in some 3 month and 0-3 shoes and socks. 

We went to her first parade last week, it was a Christmas theme and she seemed to enjoy the lights but slept about a 1/4 of it at the beginning. But we are really enjoying doing some family events and are going to be doing santa pictures this Sunday. 

Baby photo bomb!

5 months 

We just finished up Halloween, River was a strawberry (cutest strawberry I’ve ever seen). We went to moms and dads to show her costume off and borrow a couple movies off my dad. We had 12ish trick or treaters. Had quite a bit of candy left over from lack of kids, oh well guess we’ll have to eat it :p 

River is 16lbs now and just starting to sit up, she still isn’t huge on rolling over so I’m not sure crawling is going to happen any time soon. She’s mostly in 3-6 mo this clothes but a few 6 m sleepers.  She’s been going thru a sleep regression and it’s been a lot of ups during the night though last night wasn’t as bad. We are still breast feeding with 2 or 3 2oz bottles, she only will nurse in side laying position or standing up which can be a hassle. I’ve all but given up pumping, i had borrowed two pumps and returned one and tried to return the other but she gave it to me so I’ll still pump occasionally (as I am right now as my mom as baby ) tho I’m only getting about 2oz from both sides. I’m almost at my goal of 6m and then we will see from then on, I hear it’s easier once they are having solids as well. It’s been a real struggle but I feel I’ll still feel guilty totally giving it up and I honestly think River won’t be tooo happy about it either. We’ve been trying a couple solid things, she seems to be ok with banana and oranges but that’s it so far. She pretty much spits everything else out so she’s probably not ready just yet to be trying stuff daily. 

I’ve been going to a moms group once a week and that’s been pretty good, sometimes there are speakers but mostly just a topic that we sort of talk about and it’s so nice to be able to talk to other moms about what I’m troubled with or what rivers going through and not feel judged or worried about it cause they get it. We can continue to go for another month then we age out. So hopefully we can find another place to go weekly after that.

4 months

We went and got her weighed on Monday and she weighs 14 lbs and 6 oz. she’s gone from 13th percentile to 59th since birth. She’s doing so good. She’s getting more motor skills every day. She holds her own bottle, plays with toys by rattling then or trying to eat them. 

She’s starting to teeth I think as she’s been pretty cranky the last few days to a week.

Naps are pretty much a magically unicorn and happen ussually in the car or for 15 mins at a time. It’s been rough. We are trying a couple things to get her to sleep longer during the night as she nurses every two hours and it’s getting pretty wearing on mommy. So instead of side lie feeding her I’ve been trying to sit up and make sure she eats as much as she can by waking her up when she falls back asleep (that hasn’t seen much progress ). Also she’s partially formula fed but mostly breast fed so I’ve been giving her a bottle to fall asleep for the night instead of nursing her and she actually slept 5 hours straight last night. So I’m going to keep that up and see if I can actually catch up on some lost sleep for a couple nights. Here’s hoping. 

I packed away all her 0-3 months clothes and her size one cloth diapers, a couple days ago, it’s a work in progress as some of its till on the laundry and I have to try some of them on to see if it’s the last time wearing it or not, so that’s slightly sad but I’m happy to see she’s growing and I can’t wait for the next step of her life. 

She’sstarted to cuddle, mostly with dad as mom mostly a meal atm. But that’s incredibly cute, hopefully I will get some cuddles soon. She recognizes mommy, daddy and grama. She’s such a smiley girl and loves to be held by everyone possible. Strangers love her cause she always smiles at them when they say hi and smile. 

So far sickness has evaded her. Though we go into crowds more often then recommended, she’s doing good hopefully building an immune system. 

She loves touching faces and making eye contact. She’s such a smart little girl and everyday I love her more and more ❤

Three months old

Our little lady is doing wonderful. Growing more beautiful everyday. She’s getting rolls and rolls, it’s very adorable! She’s getting more vocal and often just yells for the sake of it without needing anything at all, just to hear her own voice I think. She’s playing with some toys, one I hang from her bouncer she loves to hold and try to put into her mouth even though it’s the wrong shape to do so. She’s constantly chewing on her hands and fingers and there’s a defiance increase in the amount of drule that comes out of her mouth. She’s goo through a couple outfits a day from it but I don’t mind. 

I’m getting more relaxed about breast feeding. I tried my hardest for 2.5 months and wasn’t able to get to ebf despite my efforts, we haven’t regressed any but we haven’t been able to cut out the 6 oz of formula she gets a day. I’m done stressing about it all the time. I honestly only breast feed cause I know how good it is for her, all the struggle has made me hate doing it, which is such a shame as I was so looking forward to the bond ect that people talk about with nursing there little ones. I love my daughter and feel a very strong bond with her but none of that has come from feeding her. I hope we will have an easier time if we get to have another baby one day and I can appreciate it then. For now I’m just accepting things for what they are and moving on. Feeding her a bottle when my breast don’t fill her up and not trying to squeeze every last drop out, pumping when I have time and not giving up time with her to do so. Not eating lactation cookies constantly and drinking lactation teas three times a day. I am keeping up on drinking water but that isn’t a big deal and doesn’t stress me out. I’ll feed her when she’s hungry and that’s it. 

Shes nearly doubled her birth weight but ill know the exact amount on Tuesday at her 3 month appointment. She seems over all like a normal happy baby though, luckily hasn’t gotten sick yet. So I don’t really have anything to say to the dr but this is our first visit with my family dr, and first time for my dr to meet her. 

I just packed away all her newborn clothes a couple days ago. I had a newborn box for about a month but now nothing that is a newborn size is in her wardrobe and a 3 month box has been created. She’s still wearing Mostly 0-3 and 3 months are a bit baggy but I’m sure that will all change soon enough. 

Her hair hasn’t grown too much but it’s defiantly bright red where it has come in. I think it may be curly too by the way it frizs a bit but again we will see. 

She seems to have the same poor circulation I do and I always have to have socks on her and am trying to warm her hands with mine. Poor kid. Sucks having to keep long sleeves on her all the time but I’d rather her be warm. Though she is very cute in her dresses, i often just throw a white onsie under the ones with no sleeves. 

She’s able to roll from her back to sides and to her front though she only does any of this when on the bed trying to get to the boob, it’s good insentive I guess. I try and do tummy time everyday but she just hates it, I stop as soon as she tell me too, so hopefully all the baby wearing and holding helps grow her tummy muscles, she’s been able to hold her head up since around week 2 though so just needs work on the arms and abs. 

It’s so interesting watching her learn and grow, I’ve never been so proud in all my life. Until next time. 

(All the pink was not me but she does suit it I think <3)

Two months (tomorrow)

Well mostly everything is going well. Joined LLL last month and looking forward to the next meeting. Still haven’t gotten to ebf which is disappointing but I’ve booked with a lactation consultant and will hopefully get some pointers as to what might be going on. Feeding 8-10 a day on both sides, drinking lots of water, feeding 3 times skin to skin during the night, drinking mothers milk tea and eating lactation cookies, her latch is good, no ties, I’m on donperidome, pumping at least 5 times a day, It’s just feeling so forced and stressful when it’s supposed to be natural and healthy. 

Seeing my seven year old tomorrow, she will see her sister for the second time, her mother is coming near the town we live in to go camping and see family so we don’t have to go the ferry ride and two hour drive to see her. Though next week I am Hoping to bring River over there for the day as we got a new stroller that would be good for the park or the mall where ever DD wants us to go as a family. Hopefully that won’t we too stressful but tomorrow will be fun at the beach, the park and come home for a bit. 

 Found one of my baby dresses at my aunts house, not sure if she kept it the whole time or took it after awhile at my gramas but it’s adorable 


Also went swimming for first time at the pool. We started about an hour and a half with my friend and her two year old. She didn’t cry, we brought a bottle for if she got a bit hungry which she finished but in the end it was just too cold for little her. Hoping to go in a couple more weeks, get her used to the water. 

For developments, she has great leg strength and has started rolling back to front. She’s always been super engaged but now is seeming to recognize mommy, daddy and grama, she loves to stand supported and she hates to be cradled unless she’s about to fall asleep, she prefers her body yo be up and her head above her shoulder too see everything. 

We went for our first stroll in the neighbourhood with our new stroller which she just fits. We’ve been making sure to get out of the house every day but mostly we go visit people or run errands. She loves walks, we also went for one in my moms neighbourhood which she enjoyed. 

She still hates naps but sleeps well during the night, just up around 3 times a night 3,5,7 sometimes we stay up at 7 but ussually we get up around 830 or 9. We haven’t started a bedtime, she goes to bed when we do right now. 

Her next appointment is in September but I might pop into the nurses office and weigh her this week but my guess would be around 11lbs 

6 weeks

Officially over a month old, last Tuesday she was 8lbs 3 oz. Yay, into normal baby weight territory! Things are starting to get into routine, we all sleep in the same room so she goes to bed when we do, sometime between 10:30 and midnight, then up around 2 and 3 and then up again around 430 or 5 then ussually up for the day between 7 and 8. I’m starting to feel less tired on that amount of sleep which is nice. 

We had a meet and greet for friends and family but only a couple people came, it was supposed to be gift free it everyone brought something anyway, it was very quaint and quiet but nice. 

She met her great grandma for the first time last Tuesday, me and my grama have always been very close and I was very proud to show her off, my grama had a stroke three years ago so her left side does not function but she (with my moms help) got to hold River and take a few pictures. It was bitter sweet for her I think as it reminded her of how much her stroke changed her life. She will never get to baby sit or chase after her like she did with me when I was a baby. I wish my daughter could have an opportunity to have the same relationship with her as I did but it’s just not possible and quite heart breaking to me. 

On the bright side my mom is very involved and we are seeing her very often so she will be able to have a good relationship with her grama at least. Like me, River only has one grama & so we are both of us are lucky to have a grama who makes up for it by being twice as involved. 

Overall things are going well, we are still breastfeeding, topping up with formula and then (not during the night) pumping. She’s healthy and ussually happy, though I think the formula gives her a bit of a tummy ache sometimes, and that’s all that matters. I’m going to go to a la leache league meeting next week and hopefully get some more support, my husband is supportive but just doesn’t understand exactly what I’m going through. 

DH is still struggling with getting rest during the night, though he’s not getting up with her, she still disturbs his sleep when she wakes up and he’s pulling 12-15 hour days at work 5 or 6 days a week. He’s just drained all the time. 

This last Sunday was my birthday and I babysat my friends baby who is 6 weeks older than River, DH was supposed to be home but he didn’t get hom until my friend was leaving with her baby, luckily my mom showed up with a present and helped me out as they were both getting fussy. It was funny holding my friends baby then holding River cause it seems she’s getting so big but she feels like s feather compared to baby boy who is only really 4 or 5 lbs more than her, hard to believe she will be that big in 6 weeks. She’s still pretty petite but definitely growing. 

Tonight my friend is taking me out for dinner as a late birthday present and daddy will be alone with baby for the first time for an extended amount of time. Hopefully all will go well. He’s so good with her, I really shouldn’t be worrying but I think I will worry whenever I’m away from her, so I should get used to it.

Almost 4 weeks 

So not a lot has been going on, darling girl has been down to the beach,out to a bbq and to church so far in her life. Mommy and daddy went on a date for their anniversary and grama watched her, far worse for mommy then for baby though I did notice when I got home she had wondered were I was, she kept staring at me and when I got home she was crying but as soon as I held her she was quiet for the rest of the night. Her weekly weigh in at 3 weeks was 7.6 lbs so up 8 oz in a week, yay. Breast feeding is still going terribly, feeding, topping up and pumping is still the routine but my supply has not gone up at all. I’m producing about 50 ml from the pump every two hours. Since she’s having 60-120 ml top up, id say whatever she is getting from the breast is pretty small. 

What Actually got me thinking about blogging was something totally different. I keep having this feeling that the shoe is about to drop in regards to little one, like she’s going to disappear or I’ll be told there was some mistake and she will be taken. It’s a terrible feeling but it’s been building the last week or so. I think it’s my mind has accepted that she is in fact real and not part of a dream and this having a hard time accepting that she’s here and ours. She’s just so perfect, how could we (mostly  I as I can see how with dear husband as he already has one perfect child to prove it) have created someone. Pregnancy just doesn’t adequately prepare you for it, the kicks and movement just aren’t enough to make your brain comprehend that there is a someone in there. Maybe it’s just me. I’m not sure.