So I guess I can say I’ve done some growing up in the last year. I look at myself a year ago and I barely recognize that it’s me. I was very depressed. About a year ago I went out to grab something from the store and started crying. I couldn’t handle my life anymore, I needed it to be the end of the month right then and there and move. I ended up driving aimlessly and parking in a parking lot. I cried my little heart out for quite a while, then I called my friend Sarah to see if i could cry at her for bit but she was with a friend, so I called my friend Taryn. My angel. She told me to head over to her house. I didn’t make it past the greeting, I was crying like it was the end of the world. I do t think I’ve cried as much as I did that day, probably my whole life. She hugged me for a good 5 mins straight and patted me on the back and told me how strong I was so lasting this long and what a good person I was and how much she loved me. Idk what would have happened if she would have ignored my call or been busy. God was looking out for me that day, he knew I was at my limit. I could not deal with it anymore. I thank him for blessing my life with my friend Taryn often, I hope I am able to help someone the way she did that night for me one day.
My character as grown so strong over the past year, I have the strength to recognize my limits now. I know what I want. I know that people will judge me, because they think it’s going to aspire me to want more, I have let go of the anger towards those people. I understand them, and I appreciate the ‘encouragement’ it’s my life I can live it anyway I choose, I choose happiness, I choose love and laughter and friendship. I may not change the world by discovering something totally new to man kind but I will change the world. Through example. Through education. Through leadership, my friend and family.
What do I want to be when I grow up? A good person, mother, wife, friend, Sister, and daughter. I want to be someone who makes a difference in your life, and their life. I want to create a better world for the future. Was I this person last year? Yes. I just didn’t know it yet.
-Lora